kristina gonzalez sander

If the end of the year is a time for reflecting, the beginning of the year is a time for doing. The days between the holidays and New Year’s exists in a surreal passage of time where it’s difficult to even remember what day it is... but at soon as the new year starts, it feels like the traffic light just turned green.

And with a festival on the horizon (February 10), our team is hitting 2019 with our foot on the gas pedal. For those who may not yet have heard, thanks to a grant from the city of Austin’s Cultural Arts Division, collective blue is producing a festival called missfits fest – a one-day festival celebrating Asian-American women in entrepreneurship and the arts. From speaker panels on mental health, sexuality, media representation, and pursuing a creative career, comedy, live music performances, a Bollywood dance workshop, craft vendors, DJ sets, to a night food market, we have a lot of exciting work on our plate.

But while we’re elbows deep in “doing,” our reflections from last year still guide our work and shapes January’s theme.  

We started missfits fest to celebrate the shared experiences of Asian-American women while  also bringing to the forefront the qualities that make us unique, affirming us as writers of our own narratives.

To exemplify this month’s theme of “individuality,” we’re featuring our fellow missfits fest collaborator, Kristina Gonzalez Sander. A multidisciplinary creative and logistical badass, Kristina is the Project Manager for Party at the Moontower (a minority and woman-owned event furniture rental company), and recently founded in bold company, an online journal exploring the raw stories of women of color.

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The daughter of Filipino immigrants, Kristina grew up in the suburbs outside of Chicago. The community she lived in severely lacked in diversity, and a distinct disconnect from her parents’ culture and people marked her early years.

“As I got older and I got more secure with how I felt about my cultural identity, I started looking for more of that in my life.”

Eager to reconnect with her Filipino heritage, Kristina not only started seeking out minority communities but also worked to create opportunities for people to share their own experiences with their cultural identities. Though Kristina was accustomed to thriving in environments where she was often singled out as one of the few, she has an intrinsic understanding of the importance of community.

“[Your own people] just understand you in a different way,” explains Kristina. She believes that when you’re around other people with similar backgrounds as you, you gain a strong built-in support system that backs you up without you having to explain yourself. As a woman of color, Kristina actively seeks and creates that support from and for others.

After collaborating on numerous projects centered around storytelling, identity, and self-expression, Kristina gained the insight, skills, the inspiration to start her own project, in bold company. The online journal serves as a space for women of color to explore their multidimensional selves and to spark genuine, vulnerable conversations about identity.

“[We] are a lot more than just our cultural identity, but that is also part of who we are and there are so many different facets of that to navigate. I'm really excited to continue exploring that with people.”

Kristina knows that there is no one uniform experience when it comes to identity. Her environment as a child and the lessons she learned as an adult shape an experience and perspective that is uniquely hers. Though it can seem like a paradox at times, individual identities is what ties her communities together.

nina ho//collective blue

nina ho//collective blue

Through in bold company, Kristina hopes to portray women of color as individuals – highlighting personal stories as counter narratives to societal stereotypes.

“Everyone feels differently about [identity] but what everyone has in common is that we feel something.”

Kristina’s desire to highlight women of color and their stories also drives her work with missfits fest. Kristina joined our missfits organizing team last August with the shared goal of increasing visibility and opportunities for Asian-American women – starting first in Austin.

“We’re going to be creating a space for people that don't normally get to talk to other people like them in a big open forum,” shares Kristina. “It's the first kind of programming here. We get to pull together people that are leaders in the community and are doing something awesome in Austin.”

in bold company launched their first storyteller campaign earlier this month on Instagram! Be sure to follow the account and check out the campaign.

We’re beyond excited to work on missfits fest with Kristina, and this festival is collective blue’s most ambitious and impactful project yet. We’re grateful for the overwhelming support from the community, and we can’t say thank you enough.

You can grab your early bird tickets ($15) for missfits fest here, and see y’all February 10!

nate araya

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As the year closes, reflection and introspection become more common practices. Looking inside oneself and back on 2018 (a year that was probably challenging for a lot of us) is certainly important, but it’s also crucial that we don’t carry the weight of our challenges alone. Dialogue within our community is vital. More likely than not, there is someone else in your circle that can empathize, or at the very least, offer some comforting words.

This month’s interview with our featured creator, filmmaker Nate Araya, feels especially timely given that many of us are probably bracing for how the cold weather affects our emotions and mental well-being. Nate is a filmmaker and storyteller whose life’s purpose is to “meet a need and solve a problem.” His work, which has been featured in publications like The Huffington Post and MSNBC, is fundamentally inspired by his experience as a first-generation American and his drive to tell stories that often go unheard in order to spark dialogue within communities.

Nate’s latest project, Growing Up in America, is “a travel-based documentary-series exploring different parts of American cities, cultures and conversations surrounding the underrepresented communities in America.”

nina ho // collective blue

nina ho // collective blue

When discussing mental health in minority communities, Nate shares, “I witnessed a lot of silent struggles that no one was really able to understand, articulate, or express. I decided to figure out how we can fill this void and empower people to voice their silent struggles.”

As a first-generation American (born in the greater Dallas area from an Ethiopian immigrant mother), Nate is uniquely equipped to identify and spark important conversations in his community. The first episode of Growing Up in America focuses on mental health, an issue that communities of color often sweep under the rug.

“The idea is to elevate the conversation around mental health, alleviate the fear of mental healthcare within minority communities, and share resources like therapy, counseling, and self care.”

“The idea is to elevate the conversation around mental health, alleviate the fear of mental healthcare within minority communities, and share resources like therapy, counseling, and self care.”

Discussions about mental health in communities of color are often fraught with tension and stigma. Historically, minority communities in the U.S. have had little reason to trust healthcare professionals. Even now, Black women are “three to four times as likely to die from pregnancy-related causes as their white counterparts,” according to the Center for Disease Control. In order to provide a safe space for conversations about mental health, Nate not only pursues projects like Growing Up in America, he’s also intentional about sharing his own vulnerabilities and struggles.  

“What I learned about myself and within my community is that we carry, as first generation Americans, an external pressure from immigrant parents that have certain values and expectations that are very different from [ours],” Nate reveals. “There's a conflict within the household, a disconnect.”

Children generally not agreeing with their parents’ belief systems is not unheard of, but the context of immigration adds a different nuance. Whereas parents and children of families who’ve  been in the U.S. for several generations have core similarities in their values and culture, there can be a wide gap between immigrant parents and their American children. As an example, first generation immigrants tend to hear, from a young age, that they’re not “American” enough from their peers at school and come home to parents who say they are too “American.”

“Everywhere I went, there was always a sense of never feeling good enough.”

“Everywhere I went, there was always a sense of never feeling good enough.”

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Navigating this feeling of inadequacy is a major source of trauma for first generation immigrants. Immigrant parents’ views on survival and success can be in direct conflict with the American values of self-actualization and individualism. When children deviate from what “success” looks like to their immigrant parents, the parents’ immediate concern becomes, “Will my children  survive?” From the children’s perspective, their parents can seem heavy-handed or close-minded. Add into the mix an environment where parents and children don’t necessarily talk about their feelings, worries, or struggles -- it’s a recipe for misunderstanding.

“Parents don't reveal too much of their insecurities or their hurts or their pain because they're trying to protect their children,” Nate shares. “But that protection [can create] a prison within the household. You can't provide an environment of healing. You can't provide an environment of curiosity and questions.”

Nate started college as a Pharmacy major primarily because that’s what “success” looked like to his family. He quickly realized he didn’t feel fulfilled within that area of study. Serendipitously, a professor introduced him to the field of communications, and he made the intuitive switch. The holiday break during his freshman year inevitably involved a lot of conversations with his mom.

“I told her, ‘Look, I'm willing to put in the work for this.’ I had to prove to her that with just as much work as it would take for me to be a doctor or an engineer, I [would] put that same amount of energy into the creative side,” Nate recalls. “She listened. She had a lot of questions that I couldn't get the answers for, which I think is normal, because I was still learning myself.”

Though there is still a gap between Nate’s and his mother’s definitions of “success,” love and genuine respect for each other fuel their relationship. At the end of the day, hard work is a value that they can always agree on.

“You have to be okay with disappointing your parents for a season. You’ve got to trust your process. You've got to trust your truth,” advises Nate. “I'm blessed to have a mom that just wants me to be well, who wants me to be okay and happy, even if it's unconventional and unfamiliar to how she sees life.”

“You’ve got to trust your process. You've got to trust your truth.”

In proving his conviction not just to his mother but to himself, Nate accepts his unique first generation culture – a culture that’s not fully Ethiopian, not fully American, but uniquely his.

nina ho // collective blue

nina ho // collective blue

“I've learned to embrace this first generation culture as my own. [I am] able to finally say that I am enough, that I'm valuable within my own culture,” Nate asserts. “I don't like boxes. I'm Black. I'm Ethiopian. I'm American. I’m all of those. I give myself permission to be that complicated.”

Nate’s priority now is trying to find the balance between creativity, supporting his family, and financial sustainability while pursuing his purpose of meeting needs and solving problems. He’s got a lot on his plate, but his dedication to his community, especially through cultivating meaningful dialogue, serves as a source of personal fulfillment.

You can keep up with Nate’s work on Instagram and keep an eye out for future screenings of Growing Up in America.

maria oliveira

This year’s Hispanic Heritage Month vibrates with a unique energy. In 2018, the political spotlight shines on the Latinx community not only as a celebration of culture, history, and success, but also because of the demographic’s growing influence. The midterm elections are inescapable in the news, especially in the midst of Texas’ heated and close Senate battle.

For this month’s feature, the collective blue team was intentional about highlighting an individual that represented both sides of the coin -- creator and political activist. We were incredibly honored to sit down with Maria Oliveira, co-founder of Passport Vintage – a vintage shop that’s been featured in publications such as Glamour, Harper’s Bazaar, and Refinery 29 – and social media coordinator for Jolt Texas, an organization that brings Latinos from across Texas together to exercise their collective influence and power.

Over the past few years, Maria has thoughtfully combined her experience in the fashion industry and determination to create diverse spaces to advocate for the Latinx community. While interviewing her at Greater Goods Coffee (another local business owned by a woman of color), she talks about her relationship with immigration, fashion, and the Latinx community.

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nina ho // collective blue

At 11 years old, Maria left her home country of Brazil with her family and settled in Ft. Lauderdale.

“[At first,] I didn't speak a word of English. Nothing,” Maria reveals. “I had a really hard time.”

The school that Maria attended didn’t offer English as a Second Language Services, so she had to overcome both the challenges of learning in a classroom setting and piece-mealing together an unfamiliar language. Despite the obstacles in front of her, Maria ultimately excelled.

“I won a full ride scholarship in the sixth grade. But because I was undocumented, I couldn't use it.”

Due to her legal status and family finances, higher education wasn’t an option. Maria started working at American Apparel immediately after graduating from high school where she worked her way up from Retail Associate to District Manager in Miami and then in Chicago. Eventually, her relentless drive led Maria to take a chance on herself. 

“I've always felt like I live my life for everyone else, so my big dream before I turned 30 was to do something for myself. That dream was to start my own business.”

Passport Vintage came about as a result of a timely business partnership and Maria’s “political awakeness.” Although American Apparel gave her a crash course in retail and fashion, Maria was discontent with the lack of representation and opportunities for people of color in the industry. She knew that if she wanted to improve the industry she loved, she had to create that opportunity herself.

“I've always felt like I live my life for everyone else, so my big dream before I turned 30 was to do something for myself. That dream was to start my own business.”

nina ho // collective blue

nina ho // collective blue

Although newcomer brands like Fenty Beauty have been revolutionizing the beauty and fashion industry, there are many long-term giants in the space that tout diversity and inclusion as marketing ploys as opposed to a true priority. Maria believes that it’s important to support brands that stand for the right values from their inception as opposed to those seeking to capitalize on recent trends.

“I'm tired of screaming, ‘Make a shade for me,’” asserts Maria. “No, let's support people that are us and are supporting us. I'm more about elevating people of color who don't have those opportunities than to beg these businesses to cater to me.”

Maria’s activism extends beyond Passport Vintage. The passing of DACA in 2012 ignited Maria’s advocacy for immigrants’ rights. Her previous status as an undocumented immigrant and her brother’s status as a DACA recipient became driving forces for her political activism. After moving to Austin, Maria felt that it was “serendipity” that led her to meet Cristina Tzintzún, Executive Director of Jolt Texas.

“Jolt is knocking on a hundred thousand doors to mobilize people to vote for Beto. We want to mobilize young Latinx voters so that we can change Texas.”

“Jolt is knocking on a hundred thousand doors to mobilize people to vote for Beto. We want to mobilize young Latinx voters so that we can change Texas.”

nina ho // collective blue

nina ho // collective blue

In today’s political climate, we often waver between righteous action and paralyzing helplessness. Living in America as a woman, a person of color, or a member of another marginalized community can be exhausting and feels like we’re in a constant state of resistance.

Sometimes we just want to be and create without constantly feeling like we have to fight. Since there is often not much representation of diverse creators, it can feel like we’re not allowed to produce imperfect work because whatever we produce represents the quality of our communities as a whole. However, we shouldn’t forget that the fact that our work even exists – and that offering individualized perspectives into our shared identities – is resistance enough.

For Maria, resistance looks like creating a space for herself in an industry she loves and prioritizing her own dreams. She’s found a balance between combining work that makes her happy and helping her community move forward.

“As I've gotten older, I'm meshing all the different parts of myself that I kept compartmentalized for so long.”

When asked about how to best support her, Maria told us to go vote. Given the current political environment, your vote this midterm elections could make a significant difference in bringing about change.

Below are some helpful dates and links to help you get out and vote!

October 9, 2018 - Last day to register to vote  

You can register to vote by printing out the form from this link and follow the directions to mail in your voter registration. If you’re unsure if about your voter registration status, you can check through that same link – www.votetexas.gov.

The non-profit organization vote.org is also another credible source that’s easy to navigate and user friendly with simple language: www.vote.org/state/texas/.

(Be wary of phishing sites and only enter your personal information to check your registration status on credible websites.)

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October 22 - November 2, 2018 - Early voting period by “personal appearance” (aka in-person)  

Here’s a list of early voting locations in Travis County. There are also mobile voting locations as places like local supermarkets and recreational centers. We highly recommend voting early to avoid the crowds on election day.

November 6, 2018 - Election Day

Here’s a list of election day voting locations in Travis County.

Where can I read up on candidates and issues for the 2018 Texas midterms election?

Political news sites like Texas Tribune have a breakdown of the Texas Elections. You can also search for your general election ballot here by entering your county and then doing research on the candidates on your ballot.

Additionally, Maria has also provided her own light-hearted voter’s guide below. (But obviously we recommend you doing your own research on the candidates, too.)

Lastly, you can follow Maria, Passport Vintage, and Jolt Texas on Instagram to stay up to date with their work.